Le retour

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The Tuesday Man banished the word "difficult". So it was / is painful, anguishing, frightening, exhausting.
What is left? My feet so cold, my body curled up that cannot, cannot get warm. A bottle of patchouli - I hate that smell. An ugly necklace. Crumbs on the floor. Voices raising in the kitchen. A weak fence to protect my tulips against the deer. A movie never finished and finally at 2 AM screams in the den and cigarette smell in the staircase. A last e-mail. My inability to make a decision.

[Sorry for this cryptic post - for me only. To remember.]